"This Too Shall Pass"

My friend, David, got a tattoo written on his chest. "This too shall pass". When I asked him what it means, he said to me that everything will just pass whether it's good or bad.

David's tattoo inspired me in so many ways. He's younger than me but I learned many things from him. And from that tattoo, I learned that everything's not last forever. So, be grateful for whatever you have right now and enjoy every moment of it, because you don't know how long it will last. When it's already become a past, it's just the past. There's now way you can go back no matter how much you make effort for it and all you can do is regretting what you've done in the past. So, be grateful, positive, and have faith, everyone!

Thank's so much, David, for the lessons you taught me in a very simple way.

This too shall pass, shall not it?

21.51

Depok, February 23 2011

My Wish

sometimes I still wish that you're still there waiting for me, and all of this is just a dream.

and when I wake up, everything just get back to normal like it used to be.

instead, right now is the normal and my wish is the dream.

and I know I have to face the normal one, the reality.

it's just..

Home

I'm home. Finally, after more than 5 months, I survived. For some people 5 months might be nothing, but for me, 5 months is learning, suffering, friends, sadness, happiness, etc and it means a lot.

When I first arrived at Soekarno-Hatta International Airport, I was looking for my family, afraid that they're not there, but there they were, waiting for me and shaking their hand. I ran to them and hug them. I couldn't hold my tears, I missed them. It's really nice to know that there are some people who love you for whatever you are, whatever you did, you do, and you will do. And you know that they are always there for you everytime. They are, simply, your family.

20.56
Depok, January 11 2011

Ramalan

Beberapa hari yang lalu, ada teman yang meramal bahwa saya akan menikah sekitar umur 24. Dia bercerita, ramalannya biasanya benar. Biasanya saya bukan orang yang gampang percaya dengan ramalan, tapi setelah saya diramal kemarin, saya baru sadar, sudah banyak orang yang meramal saya akan menikah di umur 24.

Saat ini, di umur saya yang ke-21, saya merasa sudah cukup dewasa, dan saya juga merasa, saya sudah siap kalau ada seseorang yang meminta saya untuk jadi pendamping hidupnya. Tapi mungkin, mungkin ternyata saya belum sedewasa itu untuk bisa hidup bersama orang lain yang pasti berbeda dari saya. Dan mungkin, mungkin ternyata saya belum siap untuk mendampingi seseorang, hidup bersamanya dalam susah maupun senang.

Mengapa saya sedikit percaya dengan ramalan tentang kapan saya menikah ini? Karena mungkin nanti saat saya sudah berumur 24, saya sudah lebih dewasa dan lebih siap untuk menikah dari segi apapun. Itu cukup masuk akal untuk saya karena saya percaya seiring dengan berjalannya waktu, banyak hal yang bisa saya pelajari untuk menjadi wanita dewasa yang lebih baik, menjadi istri yang baik, dan ibu yang baik bagi anak-anak saya nanti kelak.

15.00
Seoul, January 5 2011

My #555 Room in SK Global House, Yonsei, Seoul, Korea

This is my room in SK Global House. Well it's such a mess in the picture but it's not exactly like that. I took the picture like 6 days before I leave this dorm and right before I pack all my things, so I thought there's no need to clean up the room because I'm gonna leave soon. Oh yeah, I'm maybe one of the most laziest person on earth. I once found a rotten apple under the bed. Oh but I'm 100% sure, my room is not smelly (or it is?). :D

This is my messy desk. On the very top, there are my Indomie Goreng stocks and some Super Bubur that one Indonesian gave me when he came here. On the second top, some postcards, small dolls, etc from my friends. And then there are my books, papers and school stuffs. On the middle, there are some cosmetics that I bought that I haven't packed. And then, as you all see, there's my laptop, my BB cream, mirror, Al-Qur'an, hairdryer, and even gloves.

 This is, I believe, my chair. I used to sit there but not anymore after I put all my coat, jacket, cardigans, and other winter stuffs there. :D

This is my bed. There are, my friend said, grandma's blanket which is very warm, a pillow with pillowcase I brought from home and lovely teddy bear that my best friends gave me before I came here. Oh and there's a hole under the bed to put my luggage.

This is my small cupboard but somehow all my clothes are fit there.

This one and the one below is the bathroom. It's small but it's very comfy. I don't know how it's still clean even if I don't clean it.

And this one, as you know, is the toilet. It's separated from the bathroom, luckily.

This is the front door. There's a cupboard to put some shoes and other stuffs. The bathroom is in the left and the toilet is in the right.

Alright. What do you think about my room? Though it's such a messy room, I still love it. I'm gonna miss this room when I finally leave it. I slept, studied, laughed, and even cried here. I'm gonna miss you my #555 room!


01.28
Seoul, December 17 2010

Expired Date

강무결: 난 좋아할 땐 다른 여자 안 보고 너만 좋아할게. (kalau aku mencintai seseorang, aku hanya akan mencintai orang itu dan tidak akan melihat wanita lain)

위매리: 언제까지? (sampai kapan?)

Dari dialog di atas, banyak pertanyaan di benak saya.

Does love have expired date?

If love has expired date, sampai kapan kita bisa mencintai seseorang? A year? 10 years? 100 years?

Bagaimana dengan orang-orang yang dulunya saling cinta tapi sekarang sudah tidak lagi?

Apa rasa cinta mereka sudah mencapai batas waktunya?

How could a person be in love and out of love?

There are still many questions left in my mind.

And I'm still trying to find out the answers of my questions.

13.21

Seoul, December 14 2010

아파 - 2NE1

내가 준 신발을 신고 그녀와 길을 걷고

아무렇지 않게 그녀와 kiss하고

내가 준 향수 뿌리고 그녀를 품에 안고

나와 했던 그 약속 또 다시 하겠죠

우린 이미 늦었나 봐요. 우리 사랑 끝난 건가요

아무 말이라도 좀 내게 해줘요 Oh-

우리 정말 사랑했잖아 되돌릴 순 없는 건가요

오늘밤 나 많이 아파요

변했니 네 맘 속에 이제 난 더 이상 없는 거니

난 널- 널 생각하면 너무 아파 아파 아-파-

아무것도 아니란 듯 내 눈물 바라보고

태연하게 말을 또 이어가고

아니란 말 못하겠다고 그 어떤 미련도 

후회도 전혀 없다고 잔인하게 말했죠

우린 이미 늦은 건가요, 우리 사랑 끝난 건가요

거짓말이라도 좀 아니라고 해줘요-

이젠 더 잘할 수 있는데 

다시 만날 수는 없지만

오늘 밤 나 많이 아파요

변했니 네 맘 속에 이제 난 더 이상 없는 거니

난 널- 널 생각하면 너무 아파 아파 아-파-

더 이상 예전의 네가 아니야

내가 사랑한 너와 지금의 네가 너무도 달라서

그저 멍하니 멀어지는 널 바라보고만 서서 울었어

No way, I can`t recognize 

you`re not mine anymore

변해야 했니 돌아올 순 없니

꼭 변해야 했니 돌아와줄 순 없니

변해야 했니 돌아올 순 없니

왜 변해야 하니 계속 사랑할 순 없니

Oh 끝인 거니 네 맘 속에 

이제 난 더 이상 없는 거니

난 널- 널 생각하면 

너무 아파 아파 아-파-

아파 아-파-

아파 아-파-