Why? Or...

Why do people want the one they can't have? Or

Why don't people just want the one they can have?

Why can't we just be with the one we want to be with? Or

Why can't we just be with the one who wants to be with us?

Why don't you want me the way I want you to want me? Or

Why don't I want the one who want me the way they want me to want them?

And why do I live this such complicated life?

12.12

Jakarta, August 3 2012

Some Photos I've Taken

I love photography. And these are some photos I took in a tourist attraction in Paju City, South Korea. Enjoy!

Paju, Mei 13 2012

Life is A Roller Coaster

"seriously, life is the most thrilling roller coaster."

That's what I wrote on my twitter and facebook wall this morning. 

Yes, I think life is the most thrilling roller coaster. I've rode many roller coaster but it didn't scare me at all. But life, I don't even ride it but it successfully scares me. Life, just like roller coaster, takes me to the highest point and suddenly throws me to the lowest point. When I ride a roller coaster, at least I know where the end of the ride is. But in life, I have no idea where's the start and where's the end. Furthermore, I don't even know where life takes me. Life has no safety belt like roller coaster does. There's no one telling me to live this life safely. I learned by doing it by myself. I don't know whether it's right or wrong. And when I know it's wrong, it's too late to fix it. Life really is the most thrilling roller coaster, but after you ride it, at the end it's all gonna be fun, isn't it?

I don't know. I'm not sure. It scares me much. 


10.50
Depok, December 10 2011

Surat Pembaca Kompas untuk Indosat dari Saya

Saya sudah menjadi pelanggan Indosat IM3 sekitar 8 tahun. Sudah 2 tahun terakhir ini saya menggunakan layanan BIS Indosat. Pada awalnya saya tidak pernah mempunyai masalah dengan pelayanan BIS Indosat, tetapi akhir-akhir ini(kira-kira sejak awal bulan september) saya merasa sangat dirugikan oleh Indosat. Saya sudah mendaftar untuk paket BIS Indosat, sinyal penuh, GPRS juga bertuliskan dengan huruf kapital, tetapi internet, BBM, twitter, facebook, dan semua yang berhubungan dengan internet tidak bisa digunakan, khususnya jika saya sedang di rumah(rumah saya di daerah Beji, Depok) dan kampus UI. Menurut pengalaman saya, biasanya internet baru bisa lancar digunakan di atas jam 12 malam sampai sekitar jam 7 pagi, setelah itu akan kembali tidak bisa digunakan(terkadang bisa tetapi sangat lambat).  Memang ada beberapa tempat di Depok di mana saya bisa berinternet dengan lancar, tetapi di kebanyakan tempat tidak bisa. Lalu, jika saya sudah keluar Depok (contoh:Jakarta), internet akan kembali bisa digunakan, tetapi di beberapa tempat di Jakarta pun terkadang internetnya juga tidak bisa. Hal ini bukan hanya dikeluhkan oleh saya, tetapi banyak juga orang mengeluhkan hal yang sama dengan saya dan kebanyakan orang-orang menganjurkan saya untuk mengganti provider saja, tapi saya bersikeras untuk tetap menggunakan Indosat karena saya sudah lama menggunakan nomor indosat saya ini. Saya sudah beberapa kali melaporkan hal ini ke customer service Indosat, tapi tetap saja tidak ada hasilnya. Malah saya sering mendengar alasan yang bertele-tele dan biasanya mereka hanya menyuruh saya untuk menunggu 1x24 jam. Sampai kapan saya harus menunggu?? Saya merasa dirugikan karena dengan tarif yang terbilang mahal, pelayanan BIS Indosat sangat buruk. Apalagi saya sehari-sehari hanya berada di kampus dan rumah, jadi saya tidak bisa menggunakan internet walaupun sudah membayar mahal. Saya pikir perusahaan telekomunikasi sekelas Indosat sudah sangat profesional dalam menangani hal seperti ini, tetapi kenyataannya masih jauh dari profesional. Saya harap Indosat bisa lebih meningkatkan pelayanannya, khususnya di Depok dan lebih mendengarkan keluhan dari pelanggannya. Jika tidak, maka saya yakin Indosat akan ditinggalkan oleh para pelanggannya.

Jahat dan Bodoh

Jahat itu adalah

kamu yang sedemikian rupa membuat agar hidup saya hanya ada buat kamu,

memanipulasi segala sesuatu agar semuanya bisa berjalan sesuai dengan keinginan kamu,

lalu seenaknya meninggalkan saya begitu saja tanpa alasan yang berarti,

dan tidak peduli bagaimana sakitnya perasaan saya.

Jahat itu adalah

kamu yang kembali lagi ke hidup saya,

lalu berpura-pura seperti tidak pernah terjadi apa-apa,

dan berpikir bahwa saya baik-baik saja padahal saya tidak baik-baik saja.

Bodoh itu adalah

saya yang masih bersikap baik dan menerima,

setelah semua yang kamu perbuat pada saya.

Bodoh itu adalah

S.A.Y.A

22.34

Depok, 30 September 2011

My Second Home, Korea

Today I'm gonna leave this country again.. Korea. I consider this country as my second home. Why should this country become my second home?

Firstly, because I can speak Korean, so even though it's a foreign country for me but I feel comfortable because I can communicate well with all people here. I can also improve my Korean competency.

And then, I lived here for about a year. I've been through a lot of things here. From happy to sad and then happy again and then sad again. From laughter to cry. From a friend to best friend. I found it all here.

Third one, I got a lot of friends here. Korean friends, Indonesian friends, or other friends from all over the world that I met at school.

And this one also the thing that I love the most about Korea. SHOPPING. Yes, I'm a shopaholic. Here in Korea, you can buy anything you want just by one click. I mean, you can buy anything from the internet. They provide everything, from head to toe, from drinking water to airplane ticket, just everything. And you can rely on it! The delivery also comes fast. The price also reasonable. Not only on the internet, the usual place also great. Even when you go to a traditional market, you'll still get something cute to buy.

Last but not least, internet in Korea is the fastest in the world. When you experience it by yourself, you'll know the different.

Well, however, nothing's perfect. Korean also has some weaknesses, but let's not see it at least for now.

And however, I'm always gonna miss this country, and I know I will always come back here again, anytime..

01.20

Seoul, September 12 2011

추억

    추억이라는 말은 "지나간 일을 돌이켜 생각함"이라는 뜻을 갖다. 추억은 대부분 좋은 기억인데 꼭 다 좋은 기억이 아닐 수도 있다. 아무리 나쁜 기억도 언젠가 좋은 추억이 될 수 있다. 한 순간에 많이 아팠던 일은 다른 한 순간에 추억이 된다. 한 순간에 많이 힘들었던 일은 나중에 추억이 될 수 있다. 추억은 우리가 만드는 것이다. 그러니까 좋은 추억만 남을 수 있도록 아팠던 일, 힘든 일, 미움, 안좋은 것을 다 지우고 항상 좋은 기억만 기억하고 그래야 좋은 추억만 남을것이다. 그것이 무슨 뜻이냐면은 우리가 항상 마음을 비우고, 용서하고, 그러면 다 좋은 추억이 될것이다. 어렵긴 한데 자기가 믿고 다 할 수 있다.

나는 그렇게 생각한다..

00.10

대전, 2011년 9월 1일